For days I have been contemplating how to start my first blog post. I wanted my first imprint on the world of blogging to be memorable, inspiring and perfect. I racked my brains trying to find the perfect topic, the perfect words, the perfect sentence structure and tone. But every time I sat down on my laptop ready to inspire the world with my infinite ‘wisdom’, a grey cloud rolled over me and froze every functionality of my brain. I just stared at the empty screen in front of me, the blank cursor blinking back waiting for me to do something…taunting me. Naturally, I was so daunted by the pressure that I closed my laptop and pushed it far away. In the pursuit of this impossible perfection, I forgot why I wanted to start blogging in the first place – to just write. To put my feelings and thoughts down on this proverbial paper, to acknowledge and work through my deepest feelings and desires, and to share my experiences with whoever deems them worth reading.
Truth is, I’m hoping through this process I will be able to release, connect with my deepest feelings and be accountable to my inner self. I’m hoping to mold my dreams and aspirations into more than just thoughts; to give a voice to my deepest desires and a form to all the hours of day dreaming. And when I’m lost for words or feel mentally exhausted, or don’t know how to express what I’m really feeling and my mind is scattered, I will remind myself to just write and let the words flow how they may.
If you’re following my journey, I hope I can share something meaningful enough to contribute to your life. But if no-one else reads this blog except me, I can take solace knowing that at least I’m contributing to mine.
xoxo
-Turbanella
Turbanella 